I met a lot of folks who have the nastiest attitude I have ever seen. Sometimes when they act up or explode you wonder why they came out of a bag like that. Until this week when something pissed me off so bad that I blew my lid. It was coming! The anger, the resentment, the pain of feeling like when you give your best it is still not enough. I did something I have never done before. My niece who I proudly chauffeured to the prom and have supported most of her life on everything that was important to her pissed me off so bad that before I knew it I literally hit her so hard I could have knocked her out.
I was trying to talk to her and she did not like what I was saying. So she proceeded to close my car door while I was talking which I felt was totally disrespectful because she did not want to hear what I was saying. I was standing by the door. She was wearing a brand new white chiffon dress that I purchased for her to wear to a scholarship banquet. Well, she was trying to close the door and I said do not close the door on your dress. I knew that once the door closed on that white delicate dress, it was over. The child said something like forget this dress and slammed my door on it anyway. But she forgot the window was down before I knew it I reached into that window and battered that poor girl. She was shock, my mother was shocked and so was my daughter whose eyes showed the real shocked.
I work hard for every dollar I have and for her to literally destroy a dress because I was telling her something that she needed to hear that would help her was a little too much for me. Her totally disrespect for me, my money and for my mother was more than I could stand, her actions made me blow my lid. I know that I probably blew up because I was holding in so much already. I do not hit kids, youths or anyone because I am not abusive. I am not violent. I have always been a loving and caring person, but that was just the thing, the act that made me do the unthinkable. I am not her friend, her best bud, but her adult aunt who stood by her pushing her to excel, to finish school to become all that she can be. My information was not to hurt or harm her but to help her. There are some times when you can really understand why folks blow their lids. I know now, I have been there. No I don’t plan on that ever happening again.