Wednesday, February 15, 2006
Screaming as Loud as I can
There are times when I really feel like screaming and cussing someone out. Yeah I said that and it makes me feel pretty good. You see I have always tried to be an upstanding citizen. I try to treat others with respect even when they do not deserve it. I avoid conflicts or folks who are deemed trouble makers. I have a very high tolerance level for dealing with folks who are loud, liars, lazy, and those who try to destroy relationships out of revenge, jealousy or rage. I really pray hard to keep myself centered. But right now I feel like screaming as loud as I can to relieve these bad thoughts that I have of someone. How come I feel like being so bad? I only hope that the way I feel today will not affect how I treat folks who are appreciative of receiving blessings. What I mean by this is: I have been very good to someone who truly was an evil devil dressed in white precious clothing. This person was so fake and everyone knows it. Pray that I will not let this sour person change how I feel toward those who may ask for help and really need it. I pray that I will not be changed by this negative energy.
Have you ever helped someone and regretted it so badly that it changed the way you will do things in the future?