Wednesday, August 17, 2005


Now that I am sleeping on the regular, which simply means about 5 hours per night, I am feeling more energized. I am also ready to start back writing and completing these two proposals that I am working on. Over the weekend we had a terrible storm and we lost our electricity for a day and a half. Although, more than 250,000 others did too, it felt like my family was the only one. It was a mess, thank God it was not too hot as a result of the rain, but I can say this....without my computer and television I was absolutely lost. I mean I was so bored that I actually felt that I could not make it. That's bad. We have become so accustomed to having these high technical toys that without them you feel blah. Think about it, not using your computer to read email, to write, to communicate, no telephones, couldn't even charge my cell phone, just sat in the dark thinking. When our lights popped on Sunday, my husband and my daughter and I just stood there staring, scared to move, thought by moving it would go back out. Finally, after about three minutes standing still in silence, we all jumped up and down, screaming. It was a mess. We are too dependent on manmade things. Some folks are still out, more than 20,000 homes, and this is day four. I'm so happy I been smiling all day. Will sleep well again tonight. Must finish the proposals by Thursday. Another good thing happened today, my 16-year-old daughter started school. She is a senior. Good thing for her, not her parents. She is so happy and I am already hyperventilating because this is our last year together then she will leave for college. She wants to go to Clark Atlanta; we want her to go to Tennessee State or University of Arkansas at Pine Bluff. We have folks that can help her if she needs it. Truly we want her to stay home for one year because 17 is too young to leave home with all the stuff happening in the world. But she is adamant in going away. Pray for this family, I can't imagine her being away. I'll probably follow her and work on my doctorate or something. Times are different. If I can convince her to stay one more year at home, I will. I know that will not work, we taught her that education is important and she wants to go, so I realize that we are going to have to cut the strings. But if I am already having problems just thinking about her leaving, what in the world am I going to do in 11 months. I know that I am rambling but this sister really loves her baby. She is my only and I know I have to let go, but ...Lessons for today is this...time does not stand still, we all grow up but it is the lessons that we are taught that will stand the test of time. Pray for all our children, our teens need to be uplifted....

6 comments:

Didi Roby said...

I am touched by your words...it all makes sense. I am a Teacher, so I know how important these times are. I will be praying!! Thanks for stopping by...came back anytime:)

Rose said...

Thank you...and thanks for stopping by. Congratulations on being a teacher--much respect. My daughter wants to be one also.

Deb Sistrunk Nelson said...

Rose, I'll be happy to "loan" you my 16-year old daughter -- if you wouldn't mind regular visits from me. You and my daughter are so much alike, she might as well be yours!

The concept of empty nest does not rest well with me, either. I spoke to my father about this last night. I told him that my daughter wants to go to school in New York or Atlanta. I think Grandpa's heart skipped a beat!

"You're not going to let her do that, are you?!" Grandpa exclaimed. My answer: "Dad, I don't want her to leave either, but I can't stand in her way." So, of course, my dad takes the pessimist's stance. He groaned, "Once she leaves, she'll never come back. She'll fall in love, get married .... "

It's not my daughter who has to grow up. It's Mom and Grandpa.

Rose said...

D.C. Sistrunk
I'm with your dad, same feelings. Will she come back or will she move and get married and take my grandchildren away?....I'm getting sick thinking about it.

gramyactress@21:
Sorry to bore you with my sleep experiences but happy you visit often.

Rose said...

Oh, Jazegma2,
You know what I feel. This stuff is so weird. Why am I tripping about this stuff a whole year early? I take comfort in your words that she will remember everything that I have taught her. I have also been documenting things so that she will always have my words of encouragement. Thank you for your words. They were powerful. I should be able to get another night of restful sleep. Thank you.

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