Wednesday, August 17, 2005


Now that I am sleeping on the regular, which simply means about 5 hours per night, I am feeling more energized. I am also ready to start back writing and completing these two proposals that I am working on. Over the weekend we had a terrible storm and we lost our electricity for a day and a half. Although, more than 250,000 others did too, it felt like my family was the only one. It was a mess, thank God it was not too hot as a result of the rain, but I can say this....without my computer and television I was absolutely lost. I mean I was so bored that I actually felt that I could not make it. That's bad. We have become so accustomed to having these high technical toys that without them you feel blah. Think about it, not using your computer to read email, to write, to communicate, no telephones, couldn't even charge my cell phone, just sat in the dark thinking. When our lights popped on Sunday, my husband and my daughter and I just stood there staring, scared to move, thought by moving it would go back out. Finally, after about three minutes standing still in silence, we all jumped up and down, screaming. It was a mess. We are too dependent on manmade things. Some folks are still out, more than 20,000 homes, and this is day four. I'm so happy I been smiling all day. Will sleep well again tonight. Must finish the proposals by Thursday. Another good thing happened today, my 16-year-old daughter started school. She is a senior. Good thing for her, not her parents. She is so happy and I am already hyperventilating because this is our last year together then she will leave for college. She wants to go to Clark Atlanta; we want her to go to Tennessee State or University of Arkansas at Pine Bluff. We have folks that can help her if she needs it. Truly we want her to stay home for one year because 17 is too young to leave home with all the stuff happening in the world. But she is adamant in going away. Pray for this family, I can't imagine her being away. I'll probably follow her and work on my doctorate or something. Times are different. If I can convince her to stay one more year at home, I will. I know that will not work, we taught her that education is important and she wants to go, so I realize that we are going to have to cut the strings. But if I am already having problems just thinking about her leaving, what in the world am I going to do in 11 months. I know that I am rambling but this sister really loves her baby. She is my only and I know I have to let go, but ...Lessons for today is this...time does not stand still, we all grow up but it is the lessons that we are taught that will stand the test of time. Pray for all our children, our teens need to be uplifted....

10 comments:

Deirdre said...

I am touched by your words...it all makes sense. I am a Teacher, so I know how important these times are. I will be praying!! Thanks for stopping by...came back anytime:)

Rose said...

Thank you...and thanks for stopping by. Congratulations on being a teacher--much respect. My daughter wants to be one also.

Deb S. said...

Rose, I'll be happy to "loan" you my 16-year old daughter -- if you wouldn't mind regular visits from me. You and my daughter are so much alike, she might as well be yours!

The concept of empty nest does not rest well with me, either. I spoke to my father about this last night. I told him that my daughter wants to go to school in New York or Atlanta. I think Grandpa's heart skipped a beat!

"You're not going to let her do that, are you?!" Grandpa exclaimed. My answer: "Dad, I don't want her to leave either, but I can't stand in her way." So, of course, my dad takes the pessimist's stance. He groaned, "Once she leaves, she'll never come back. She'll fall in love, get married .... "

It's not my daughter who has to grow up. It's Mom and Grandpa.

gramyactress@21 said...

Well lets see I'm so proud of you about time your doing your usual routine again. And i sort of got tired of reading about how tired and worn out you were. you were making me tired. I finally got a chance to see your picture but isn't that the same picture that was on the book.

Rose said...

D.C. Sistrunk
I'm with your dad, same feelings. Will she come back or will she move and get married and take my grandchildren away?....I'm getting sick thinking about it.

gramyactress@21:
Sorry to bore you with my sleep experiences but happy you visit often.

jazeGma2 said...

Rose,

You are right!Everything happens for a reason and mother nature has her own timeing which affects us all,in one way or another.

"Now think about it." You subconciencsouly direct your daily activities in so many directions, using every bit of your energy to get things done... pushing yourself even when you know you had a busy or stressful day...just one more thing and I will be done for the day. On ther otherhand my dear, the storm and the power outage was just what you needed to rejuvenate and fell energized.

You know I think about when my grown daughters were babies and I still think of them just as that! My babies! True! they are not infants, both are grown and I have a beautiful grandaughter whom I love very much and another on the way. Okay! I know your not even trying to think about grandbabies yet, but I do believe a true nurturing and loving mother or family never wants to let go, but as they grow into maturity they teach us how to let go. Ready or not! It's amazing to see how much of the morals and values we have taught them through our nurturing, quality time and bonding as a family that they absorbed.

This is what I call the foundation and structure of love, and this is the time they will walk their path that will lead them trough their success because we loved them and never stopped praying for them.

A child may leave home, but they never leave our heart and our mind.

Rose said...

Oh, Jazegma2,
You know what I feel. This stuff is so weird. Why am I tripping about this stuff a whole year early? I take comfort in your words that she will remember everything that I have taught her. I have also been documenting things so that she will always have my words of encouragement. Thank you for your words. They were powerful. I should be able to get another night of restful sleep. Thank you.

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